Rest In Peace My Little Baby!

This is one of the hardest and most heart-breaking blogs I have ever had to write. As most of you know I had my big fella Looney, who was my little baby. I had had him since he was only 26 weeks old and he was 16yrs old on the 01^st October 2017, he was  my world, words just cannot describe.

Over the last few months he had been struggling to cope with his external tumour,  to see him fighting to deal with it every day was killing me. It had ruptured a few times and was getting extremely large, my poor big fella was struggling, It was getting way too much for my little baby to cope.

I had taken a couple of weeks off work so I could look after him properly. I moved his bed down stairs so he didn’t have to try and cope with the stairs every day and I also moved downstairs to be with him. Him on his nice comfy bed and me on a blow up air bed. The things you do for loved ones hey. We slept together every night, snuggled up as we always did.

With me being off work I could concentrate all my time on him and I eventually could see how much this tumour was really hurting him. At this stage his vets had prescribed him on four tramadol a day to try and ease the pain, but being honest some nights I could feel his pain in his neck and head, it was awful to see/feel my baby go through this pain and not do anything to help it was killing me.  I had to do something to help him release this awful pain he was going through.

It was one of the most heart breaking decisions I have ever had to make in my life, but I had to help. I called the vets and they arranged to come out on Friday 20^th October 2017, to put him asleep.

On Friday 20^th October 2017, I asked my sister to come to mine so I didn’t have to do this on my own.  My sister and niece arrived about 11am. Looney lay in his bed quite content, keeping looking up at us all wondering what was going on. I asked my niece to take him for a quick walk whilst I sorted his bed out and made it nice and comfy for him. He came back in and just lay back on his bed all relaxed.

It was a very eerie day. I remember it so clearly the sun was shining so brightly through the window, Looney looked so content as if he knew it was his time to go and fly over the rainbow bridge, out of all his pain he was going through.  Then I received a phone call from the vets at 2pm to say she was on her way.  At 2.15pm on the 20^th October 2017, me and Loooney were lay side by side on his bed, him snuggled up wrapped in my arms, as I held him tight , then he fell asleep.

My heart breaks everyday knowing I have lost him, feel so alone and broken without my big fella, but at least now I know he is out of all that pain.

Fly so high my little gorgeous boy, you are a little angel and such a sweetheart. Your mum misses you so so much, you will always be with me in my heart and never a day goes by that I will never think about you. Till we meet again my big fella, I Love you to the moon and back !